A quote I loved...:)

“Remember not only to say the right thing in the right place, but far more difficult still, to leave unsaid the wrong thing at the tempting moment.”

Benjamin Franklin (1706-1790);

Loving you

I love you so much for bearing up with me..I don't know how you do it . Sometimes I feel I am nuts, and some other times I feel that these feelings I have and those thoughts that passes through my mind are just normal and should be heard and considered. You always bear up with my constant ups and downs with much patience and care..I LOVE YOU..NO ONE WOULD EVER HAVE LOVED ME THE WAY YOU DO.

Aristotle

We are what we repeatedly do. Excellence, then, is not an act, but a habit.

I like it :))

Loneliness increases day after day, still feeling that too much closeness may hurt and distort mind and soul ... wa 3gaby ...:(

Scattered Thoughts

I am so bored ..life became meaningless to me. Although I discovered serious issues about my life and my love; these issues should make me happier, but they didn't. Yet, I am grateful that I understand him better now. I don't know if our life has changed or that I haven't been able to understand him before. The ambiguity vanished and I CAN understand him better now. I discovered that he truly loves me but in his own special way and on his own terms. Sometimes he allows himself to love me on my own terms, but those moments are rare. I know I am not understood but i am happy to let those feelings out. I love him more than anything in life and I am willing to burry myself totally in his own soul and be satisfied. on previous days, i was so doubtful about his feelings towards me and I was so jealous from all those who surrounded him. Although I was sure how this feeling was wrong but I couldn't stop it or help it. Now there are no competitors, thanks for the revolution!!!! He is totally mine and I am totally his. But are we happy????? I need some serious things to do in life besides cooking, cleaning and washing dishes. I need him to ask me about some serious issues other than what's for dinner today. I need him to see me among other people and other men. I feel like a bird prisoned in a beautiful cage. I am trying to free myself but there is no way. Besides, i feel scared to be out, not only because there is no given and possible way, but also because i don't know if i could stand to be so independent emotionally and be away from him for long periods. Life is so confusing. One can never appreciate what he has until it's gone !!! I NEED AIR AND I NEED TO SEE MYSELF DOING SOMETHING ELSE OTHER THAN HOUSEWORK. I need to feel self-esteemed and learn new things and be introduced to different people. I need to be out. I search (with great fear to be accepted) but with no vein. Maybe I got used to be pampered and to be lazy and to do what I like at anytime.

I am staying up till dawn time to wake up my kids for school...can't go to sleep now or else I will skip it and will surly miss it (I mean school of course) I hope i am not causing you any boredom. I am imagining now that my blog is read by someone. I know it is not but it keeps me company to feel that somebody shares my thoughts. You will ask me why did I stay up till that hour from the very beginning??!! It's him, he likes to sleep in the morning and stay up all night. He likes to do so even if he doesn't work late. He feels really annoyed and tired physically and emotionally if he sleeps early by mistake. AND I WANT TO SHARE HIM EVERY MOMENT AND ALL THAT HE LIKES DOING. I just hate us to live separately or do things apart of each other. Although I know that each one of us like to do different things most of the time, I hate it when we give up to that urge of differences in our characters, structure or liking. One of us must give up to the other and guess who is more likely to do so !!?? :))) Anyway, I can't deny that he sometimes gives up to me and shares with me what I like doing at certain times AND I LOVE HIM MOSTLY WHEN HE DOES THAT. Previously, he wouldn't do that by any mean. He would consider giving up to me like abandoning his manhood. I think most men inherited these thoughts from their parents and lived prisoned within these wrongs. Thanks God he has changed and now he can do things for me and even admits it without being embarrassed. YES THINGS CHANGE BY THE PASSAGE OF TIME. SO ALL COUPLES SHOULD BE PATIENT AND WAIT FOR THE CHANGE THAT WILL COME SURLY EVEN IF IT COMES WITH A DELAY.

My Dad

I miss you dad so much
I miss how you saw me and how you treated me...
I miss your encouragement to every tiny move i make..
i miss how you used to meet all my idiot remarks or simple comments with much appreciation.
I miss your understanding and that no matter i got myself into wrongs you never made me feel like a discard or outcast. you always embraced me with all the love.

I never really realized how much you stood for me except when you are gone.

I miss the way you saw things, you had this pure and innocent look to all the world....You used to see the good in everything you deal with, despite of all the difficulties and hardships you went through, and despite of the uneasy life you were living.

I miss when you use to admire dramatically all the things i love; you were giving me the feeling that you were almost worshipping them. And your words about them was always a bliss to me. you always knew what i need to hear and you were saying it...

Talking to you was the most precious thing you had ever given me.
i will keep talking to you because i know you can hear me still.

يا حبيبى

يا حبيبى

هل تعرف انك تظلمنى لأنك لا تعرف طبيعتي كامرأة ، هل تعرف اننى قد اغضب من أشياء فد تراها انت عادية أو لا تستحق الاهتمام........هل تعرف ان معظم النساء يهتمون بالتفاصيل الصغيرة و يتعبهم جدا اهمال هذه التفاصيل فى حياتهم...... هل تعرف ان المشاعر هي الشاغل الأول لكل امرأة على وجه الكون وأن المرأة التي لا تنجح فى قصة حبها هى التى تنجح فى حياتها العملية.....

ياحبيبى و أقولها مائة مرة و مرة .....ياحبيبى......

لأنك أنت هو الحب الوحيد الذى عرفته فى الحياه و لن أعرف غيره إن بقى لى حياه بعد الآن

لو انك تعرف أن تتعامل مع أخطائى الصغير بقليل من التفاهم و الاحتواء دون أن تشعر أن هذه الأخطاء اهانة و جرح شخصى موجه اليك لكانت الحياه أكثر صفاءا بيننا و أكثر سعادة.......

كل ما احتاجه منك أن تتكلم معى أحيانا و أن تشعرنى بحبك أحيانا أخرى ....لا أظن أن هناك إمرأه فى العالم قد تحتاج أكثر من هذا....

هل تسمح لى أن أقول اننى لن أكف عن حبك الى أن أموت لأنك كل الحب لى....بل انت الحياه نفسها لى.......و لكنى لن أفرض نفسى عليك أيضا بعد الآن........يا حبيبى

دعوة للفرح

هل الحياه قاسية أم نحن الذي نقسو علي أنفسنا.

هل نعرف كيف نستمتع بالحياه آم نعرف فقط أن نشقي أنفسنا بها.

هل السعادة مسألة اختيارية أم هي مسألة قدرية.

اعتقد أن معظمنا يشقي في هذه الحياه لأسباب يختلقها هو لنفسه.

قد نكون توارثنا الحزن أو اعتدنا علي رؤية الآخرين الأكبر منا سنا مهمومين ، فسلكنا نفس الطريق متشبهين بهم متخذين منهم مثلنا الأعلي حتي ندعي اننا ذو أهمية مثلهم

نعم انني أرى أن السعاده هي اختياري أنا و ليست موقوفه علي الآخرين أو المواقف أو الفرص.

اننا بارادتنا نستطيع التخلص من مسببات القلق و الحزن.